Victoria Line cancelled. Took bendy bus and stood in the central circular turny part. Took every ounce of x-treme sports experience I had in order to remain standing. Other people noticeably less adept at this.
Morning spent at work listening to the radio or someone elses iPod playing out on the speaker system. A cacophony of music which I listened to when I was young and mostly of bands I saw live. Nu Metal terrors like Korn and Limp Bizkit with the occasional interlude of Marilyn Manson. I wonder if this is someone elses iPod. Me and them would get along, I should investigate.
Simon and Matt worked until 8:30am this morning and were back in at 11 today. 3 Hours rest. Hardcore mofos.
Every Tuesday the fire alarm sounds as a test, a single second of noise every week accompanied by a two second duration of internalized terror going on in my brain/heart.
Youtube idea - re-read poems I wrote as a depressed angsty teen with a degree of seriousness in order to bait trolling and general flame wars. Then reveal it was all a joke.
At several points during the day, the Roto team tried to discuss schedules and deadlines - referring to previous weeks work. All that was revealed is that we have all lost our abilities to correctly perceive space and time.
Hopefully buying a tablet. All excited. Getting excited reminded me of feelings for a certain person. I wonder if people feel this heat and exhilaration differently to me. It can feel like the foundation of a whole lot of hurt, and there's clemency to that. Somehow.
Quarter to 4, I can feel the cynicism and depression creeping up. Though currently I'm like that guy who's laughing at his friend who fell, without realizing that he's about to get hit by a wrecking ball and his friend fell in to safety. If that makes any sense.
I am now a wreck. And I am missing you right now. Bittersweet Symphony plays on the speakers. Who put this on? It's on Random.
Thought about people who hear voices in their heads. Why do the voices always say bad things. 'Kill yourself' and such. Do any mad people hear voices that say things like "You look nice today." "I want to hold you. You are amazing"? If not, why not?
Am I tired of being under-rated or am I just a frustrated newbie?
This is all just a phase. Just a phase.
I think I just saw one of those flying spider things.
Heresy. This coca cola imitation is Heresy.
5:10PM. Someone is sending me their calm.
I wonder if I am interesting because I am weird. I'm not sure I want to be weird. Different, sure. Weird no.
18:36 - Conversation Topic with Colleagues : Would you let me date your daughter? Amusing.
18:45 - Much Reliefs.
